You

I smile during the day, laugh my life away

Throwing jokes to show I’m okay, finding a reason to stay

“You are happy and carefree”, if you just really see

The lies i cover up, the sadness that i tried to stop

Tears that i drop, my happy bubbles that they pop

I’m tired of being sad, I’m tired of being numb

I just want to get mad but i know i’ll end up looking dumb

Everything is so gloomy, i just want to be happy

I want to be free from this sadness inside of me

I’m sick of grieving, I’m tired of crying

Why do i keep smiling when deep inside i’m bleeding

I’m searching for help because i’m losing myself

I don’t want this sadness to consume me

And change who i’m supposed to be

I want my black and white world, to turn into something gold

I want my old self back, i don’t want this heart that is made of rock

Sadness, sadness please go away, i just really want to play